I have these amazing “call conversations” with God constantly.
We’ve been chatting it UP these days as I’ve got questions galore!!!
I’ve been consistently telling him ONE thing though…
🙌🏾Use me as YOU will! I’ll do it.🙌🏾
(I also constantly add a quick, yet thorough list of all of my 🗣️‘I-don’t-wannas’🗣️)
And yeah… of course, that doesn’t work. Case in point:
- I don’t wanna work while in school.
- I don’t wanna be at school all day.
I was presented with a work-study opportunity before school even started. - I don’t wanna be a coach, consultant, worker, boss, trainer, server, etc…
- I just wanna be a student and riiiiiiiiiide under the radar.
Several faculty members and now some students call me Coach D.
One student was even going around the school last week asking people, “Do you know Coach D?” “Can you introduce me to Coach D?” “I’m looking for D.” My! Mind! Was! Blown! It said, “but how does she even know me?” 🤔🤔🤔
On the third day of school, a student said, “OMG! You’re Coach D!” ‘Hunh!’ “I follow your blog!” Wait, what?? Because you all KNOW I don’t blog like I need to… ‘Follow my blog?’ “YEAH! Over the summer I found you while looking at the school’s website and doing some searches. I came across your page.” OH! My! LORD!
sn: And let’s not even talk about the RED hair! You can’t miss me!
One of the professors: “Ummm… I’m probably not supposed to say this, but I love your hair.” He then comes up to me 2 days later in a class of 200 students and talks to me about his class. What in the world!?! Chile! I halfway don’t understand this class! (But I didn’t tell him that of course. I used my personality!)
sn2: OH! And the personality is a whole ‘nother thing. *sigh* Why did I even tell God that mess!?! I KNOW me! smh I’m gonna TALK! *sigh* Lawd a mercy!
sn3: You wouldn’t believe that I was NERVOUS about whether people would like me. Like a friggin’ kindergartener! I was NERVOUS! - I don’t wanna have classes on Thursdays.
- I don’t wanna have early morning classes. (at 8:30am)
I was offered with a 2nd work-study opportunity on a THURSDAY at 8:00am in a parking garage of all places!!! (And this happened RIGHT after I asked God whyyyyyyyy he MADE me have classes on Thursday on my planned Sabbath AND at 8:30am when I’m not even ALIVE at that time!!! Sheesh! I got out of the car, said hello, and BOOM! … job offer! WOW!)
Anywho, that’s a slight few samples of the ways I show God my plans and He shuts ’em down… QUICKLY! [REF: Proverbs 16:9. A woman might plan her stuff, but it is GOD who guideth the steps she takes.]
It matters not what I want to do. What’s utterly important is what God IS doing. And trust me… I STILL have a laundry list of ‘I-don’t-wannas…’, but that doesn’t stop God from moving and it doesn’t stop me from serving.
The thing I don’t wanna do THE MOST is…
Be outta His will.
(…to be continued…)
